New Year

Well the first week of the new year is over have you done anything and value yet? I havent either, and i swore that i wont try and be a new me, things are harder to change than i think. So i have started this blog as a diary as to where i am now an what i want to achieve. Where i am now: I live from payslip to payslip with little extra money each month. I am unfit and trying to get into shape i started in november but then i was working to much and have my little boy to look after so i didnt have any energy to do and exercise.(sounds like an excuse to me but i just counldnt push myself to do it) i need to really start it up again. i fell like im stuck in a rut and cant get out no matter what i do, i know i must turn this around but no matter which way i turn fate keeps blocking all the exits and i dont know why. i feel burnt out, exhausted, emotionlly broken and no matter how much i pick myself back up i fall back down again. so these are my problems that i will overcome no matter what. a saying that i have come to go by lately from a film is: Let me tell you something you already know Life aint all sunshine and rainbows its a very mean and nasty place and i dont care how tough you are it will beat you to your knees and keep you there if you let it. you, me or nobody is going to hit as hard as life but is aint about how hard you hit its about how hard you can get hit and keep moving forward, how much you can take and keep moving forward. thats how winning is done now if you know how much youre worth then go out and get it, and dont go pointing fingers saying you aint where you wanta be because of him, her or anybody, cowards do that and that aint you! Your better than that!